Celebrated hubby's birthday yesterday with an unexpected surprise for him. Besides his birthday gift, also gave him this.......
My cough isn't getting better. And I am flying off to China tomorrow. Thankfully the SARS thingy is over, otherwise I probably wouldn't be allowed to board!
Heading to Xiamen and Shanghai for work, back on Thursday night. First time to the cheena land, quite exciting because I would probably never pay to go to China anyway!!!
More updates and pictures when I am back. Be good.
I don't wanna lose you, I don't wanna use you.
Just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you. I don't wanna take you.
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place.
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much.
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Now I could never change you.
I don't wanna blame you.
Baby you don't have to take the fall.
Yes I may have hurt you.
But I did not desert you.
Maybe I just wanna have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder.
It makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth.
I keep thinking somethings gonna change.
But theres a danger in loving somebody too much.
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
And there's no way home.
When it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say.
Do you feel me beside you in your bed.
There beside you where I used to lay.
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much.
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
I am having mixed feelings, that's why I am giving out mixed signals. I am sorry.
It's just amazing how different aspects in a relationship between 2 people can be so.......... drastically different. What I experienced yesterday was totally unbelievable and I never thought possible because it has never happened before. Well, all along, it has been great. But yesterday was so much more than great. It was totally beyond imagination. 3 waves in under a minute, how am I ever going to forget what I felt?
If only the other issues could be handled in the same delicate manner with as much enthusiasm. If only we could want it just as much. If only more effort had been put in.
I really don't know how to put across how I feel. The terrible struggle between what I want and what I need. Is it wanting to hold on but needing to let go, or wanting to let go but needing to hold on?
Maybe we just need time. Time will paint us a clearer picture on what we want. Time will tell if the wounds will heal. Time is all that's left for us.
If it's meant to be, it will be. If it's not meant to be, it will never be.
Just another day out with the kids on Sunday. Yun Yi was sitting infront with her daddy, that's why no pictures of her.
Anyway, not in the mood to really blog about stuff. So that's it.
Yesterday was one of the worst nights I have ever had. Never have I felt so overwhelmed with emotions in such a short time.
Dissapointment, sadness, resignation, acceptance, confused, anger and shock. Never have I ever thought that I would be treated like that. Maybe we have not done everything that we could. Maybe everything we've done is still not enough. Maybe it was a mistake from the start. Maybe it's just time to make everything right once again.
The damage has been done, the tears have been shed, the words have been said and I have seen the side of you which I wished I hadn't. I am sorry if I have hurt you in any way and if I really did, it wasn't intentional. But you have hurt me just as bad, if not worse.
Some bad memories can be forgiven and forgotten.
Some bad memories can be forgiven but never forgotten.
Some bad memories can be never be forgiven and never forgotten.
Which kind of memories did we paint yesterday? Maybe we'll never know. Maybe time will tell. Or maybe, we just don't want to know anymore.
Ok, I have finally decided to join in the fun and talk of the town. Facebook that is.
This Facebook thingy is sooooooo damn complicated!! WTF!!! Why does everyone else's profile look so cheem and full of stuff? How do I start? What do I do??
So sua ku lor........ Somebody help!!!!
Been having this "Feng Mo" aka Hives attacks for about a month liao!!! It's striking almost everyday but mostly in the evenings or at night. But always in the same area, which is my thigh.
Some hives are caused by allergies to such things as foods and medications, but the large majority of cases are not allergic, and no specific cause for them is ever found. Although this is frustrating to patients, such common maneuvers as changing diet, soap, detergent, and makeup are usually not helpful in preventing hives and for the most part are not necessary. It can also be caused by heat, cold, vibrations (duh....), clothes, wind or even sunlight!!
So in short, there is no way in curing this hives thingy except to alleviate the symptoms. But in my case, the hives comes very suddenly and dissappears after a couple of hours so I don't want to take medicines just for that. And there isn't any change in my lifestyle or anything I use, so I don't even know what to avoid or what I am allergic to.
This is so frustrating. Hopefully mine is not a chronic condition which will last for longer than a few months. How to wear short skirts like that??
