Happy 4th Birthday - Yong Ye

Didi turns 4 today!!

Gave him his burthday gift this morning, a "Hulk" armour truck!!













Happy birthday sweetie!! Love you much.

Updates

Ok, my life is boring...... that explains why there hasn't been much updates recently. Nothing exciting is happening and nothing to look forward to either. Of course there's the occasional hiccup at home or at work, but nothing's spinning out of control yet.

Been busy with the maids upcoming work permit renewal and home leave in January. I am so going to declare myself bankrupt. Renewed her passport $85, work permit renewal plus all the insurance and guarantee $280, employment contract for home leave $350 and air tickets $300. She go back once I gotta spend almost a thousand bucks. Not complaining cos she's a great help to us, just that must it cost so much???!!

Planned a trip with hubby and friends to somewhere near but nice!! Finally something to look forward to. Been awhile since we went somewhere for R&R and will also be the first time Lena and me travelling together to somewhere without a casino!!

Am watching "Criminal Minds" now and the show is awesome!! And it is so true that there are so many people with twisted minds out there. Not to mention that Gossip Girl season 3 is showing now and also Desperate Housewives season 6 too! Busy busy busy....

And I wanna watch this show.........

Durian Pengat

Finally went to try the dessert stall which was featured in 抢摊大行动2 at Commonwealth.

Hubby queued for about 20mins for it and it was quite worth it.

Tasted pretty good with ice and gula meleka. But would I go back all the way again? Probably not, just too far for me and the waiting time needed just for dessert is to long.

My First Time

Finally after thinking about it for years, I did it today!!! I went to donate my blood this morning!!!


Sticker to indicate to the volunteers that this is my first time so that they can take care of me better!!


Pink bandage makes it all pretty and cheerful.


Thank you cards with date stamp to remindme of the next date I can donate again.


The whole "donating" process was really quick and no pain at all. Felt great after and really happy I did it. Definitely going back again as a regular donor. And I also signed up for the "Bone Marrow Donor Programme" where I will only be called upon if there is a match.

Communication

I think communication, the frequency and quality of it, is the most important factor in making a relationship work. Communicating your needs, fears, hopes, happiness and everything else.

The problem is not when you have problems communicating. It's when you don't even feel like communicating at all already, that's the problem. Really, that's when silence makes everyone's life a little less dark.

I don't need to be a gem to someone, I just don't wanna be dirt.

Struggles

Someone once told me that a good marriage is like the little ducks over there. Looks completely calm and unruffled, but underneath the water, they're paddling furiously to stay afloat.

I so seriously agree.

Star Blogger??!!

Was approached to contribute a post for blogtv. Check this out, my 2 minutes of fame!!


Link to the post, click HERE

DIY #14

This is soooo pretty. Who wants to sponsor me to take the course?? I wanna open my own nail parlour!!!

Priority. Option.

Saw Fang's MSN message last week and it felt so true.

"Don't let someone be a priority in your life when you are just an option in their life"

He was my priority and I was just an option. Note, it's past tense. Now, I am not even sure if we are both even an option in each other's life.

I am just so tired of always having to make things work. Change how I think, how I feel, what I do, how I talk and almost everything else. Why I am always the one having to make changes? Why am I always the one to have to give in? Why am I always the one having to voice out?

To be fair to me, I have been doing all the above. What have I got in return? NOTHING!!!

So really, I don't care anymore. Call me weak for no longer trying. Call me selfish for thinking of only myself. Call me sensitive. Call me whatever you want. All of you can judge me all you want. I DON'T CARE.

I will continue to fulfil my duties as a mother. But don't expect anything more than that from me. I have nothing else to give. I have already given all that I have and can for the past 13 years.

I just don't want to shed anymore tears. I just wanna be happy. Why is it so difficult?

You can continue to be unhappy for the rest of your life but please just hide and sink in self pity yourself. I don't want to be part of it.

Parenthood

Being a parent is easy. Being a good parent who needs to love and discipline our kids is difficult. And quitting is not an option.

The love we have for our children is so great that it hurts. You want to guide them onto the right track but yet not chase them away. You want to hold them tight but yet have room for them to grow and learn. You want to give them all the love you have but they start taking it for granted.

I miss the obedient and sweet girl I used to know. We all love you so much but you need to love yourself too. I want to believe that this is just a phase and it will pass soon enough. If this is a test of my patience and love for you, then be it.

I know this sounds really cheesy, but whatever we do is for your own good. You may not realise this and hate us now but all I hope is that one day you will understand our intentions.

We love you. Please come back to us.