大海

从那遥远海边 慢慢消失的你
本来模糊的脸 竟然渐渐清晰
想要说些什麽 又不知从何说起
只有把它放在心底

茫然走在海边 看那潮来潮去
徒劳无功 想把每朵浪花记清
想要说声爱你 却被吹散在风里
猛然回头你在那里

如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远
如果大海能够带走我的哀愁
就像带走每条河流

所有受过的伤
所有流过的泪
我的爱
请全部带走

Pain In The Ass No More

That pain in the ass colleague I was talking about in one of my previous post has resigned and out of the company. No, I had no part in her leaving, I was just as shocked when I found out but nevertheless am happy about it.

Go irritate the shit out of others, but not me this time!!! Hopefully she's not making way for someone else who might be worse off than her.

Ok, digressing into a totally unrelated happening yesterday night. Was at a friend's place playing mahjong and it was around 1.30am when this happened. Lena was sitting next to me when she suddenly asked the table "Do you guys smell something.....". Obviously I did and I told her yes. She totally freaked out and told me not to say anything further liao and the game went on.

What was the smell we both so distinctively recognised? The smell of a hospital. I would like to think that it's dettol and some neighbour was washing their toilets. But at 1.30am? The smell came so suddenly and lingered for a good 20 seconds before it disappeared as quickly as it came. Man I tell you, my goosebumps were all up during that 20 seconds. When I finally got home, I was walking at twice my usual speed to the lift and down the stairs. Scared.

Stop Sulking

It's very tiring to always see a sulking face at the end of a very tiring work day. Or even on the weekends. Sianz.

Happy, no smiles and no laughter. Not happy, all sulking and sarcastic remarks. It's like always being in no highs and low lows. If you get what I mean. I just wanna have a good laugh sometimes. Someone to make me happy, not always me making others happy.

I just feel that we're so different individuals sometimes. So different that I cannot seem to find anything in common anymore. No sense of humour, different approach in life, different views on things, different character, different temperaments......... almost different in EVERYTHING.

As much as I want this to work out and as hard as we're trying, it somehow just goes back to square one. No communication, no dates, no plans, no phone calls, no SMS, no nothing. I don't know what else can be done anymore.

I am so unhappy with my life now. I want to cry so badly, his shoulder is just right next to me but somehow I feel better crying into my pillows. This way, there won't be any long talks that leads to nothing and no "what's wrong with you again now?".

Pain In The Ass

I hate office politics and I hate it when colleagues start playing tai-chi with me.

I am once again amazed how some people just have that natural talent to piss people off. We are all in the same organisation and we all have different roles to play. I do what I am supposed to do, and so should you!!! All the different departments should just work together for the good of the company right? Erm.... apparently not.

I have a new colleague from another department whom I would have to work relatively close with. Had this conversation with her over the phone this evening and she really pissed me off, big time. Not going into details but one of the highlights was when she told me she wanted my supplier to not just provide her with the CD-ROM containing the documents and info needed, but also wanted it in hard copy. I asked her wouldn't the hard copy be the same? Guess what was her reply was............?

"That's alot of info and I need a working copy for myself. If I print in the office, I will need to use our office paper mah. Get supplier to print better."

I was like WHAT THE F***??!! For god's sake, you're a manager, don't say things in such an immature way. And no, I am NOT going to drop to your level to get my supplier to print it out in hard copy just for your convenience and save paper for the company.

Us being one of the largest retailer in Singapore cannot afford to print our own documents using our own paper? Joke of the year. Hahaha. Go eat shit.

Too Much Food

Went for lunch with friends this afternoon. Our all time favourite "Chong Qing Steamboat". I tell you, we really ate ALOT for 6 ladies and 2 guys. Every order of golden mushrooms and watercress is by multiples of 10 plates lor!! And I have not even mentioned all that wanton, prawns, pork belly and luncheon meat. Think we gave the staff quite a shock.

It's an early birthday celebration for Ah Hoon's birthday which is on 15th April. Thank you for the lunch and hope you like the gift Nana and I got you. Happy birthday to you babe, in advance!!!

I am writing this post lying down on my bed with a tummyache even after shitting like 20% of what I ate out lor. I nearly fainted in the toilet. Think I need Ru Yi oil.

Rest In Peace

My colleague whom I mentioned previously in one of my post had just passed away a few hours ago.

When I first got to know him about a year ago, he came across to me as a jovial uncle. Of course for someone who had been with the company for so many years, he had loads of experience to share with us.

Though I was kind of mentally prepared for the bad news I received today, it still came as a shock and upset me quite abit. It's never easy saying goodbye to a colleague, a mentor and most importantly a friend. So to his wife who lost her husband and his son who lost his father, my deepest condolences to you.

You will be remembered by all of us, rest in peace.

Cravings

Oh man, I am so craving for:

1) BBQ stingray, sotong and lala
2) Claypot rice
3) Crab bee hoon
4) Chilli crab
5) JB Bak Kut Teh

No no, I am NOT pregnant.

Other Stuff

Received some good news at work last week. Definitely made me happy. But it's confidential, so not too convenient to disclose the details here cos you'll never know who's reading this eh.

Went to Batam on Friday for a one day work plan meeting. Super tired at the end of the trip. I was trying so hard to concentrate and stay awake, I started to doodle on my notepad......

Hahaha...... Yes, I was trying really hard. And this is probably the only thing I know how to draw.

Lena came back from Japan, saw the pictures yesterday. I wanna go too!!! Hopefully the retreat this year is to Japan and not Perth. Thank you for the gift babe, love it.

Finally, hubby and me has finally decided to get a Hannya Mask for our anniversary tattoo in August. Been wanting this for years, finally going to get it done. Am so excited and I can't wait for the time to come. Now is the challenge to find the right picture and the right tattoo artist to do it.

That's all for now.