Initiative

I just hate it when some people just lacks initiative in their lives. And I super hate to have to plan for everything.

You know, the kind of feeling where you know you'll have to just do things yourself all the time before something will happen? That just sucks. If it's not you, it's nothing. From planning outings, to watching a movie, to weekend plans, to travelling plans, to dinner plans........ the list just goes on.

If I don't suggest anything, then I can just kiss any plans goodbye. It just irrittates the hell out of me when some people can just do nothing and always expect me to make things happen.

For goodness sake, please take some initiative and not always be in the passive role. You're not a ball that needs to be kicked before you move right? Or maybe I am wrong, maybe you are.

I am just tired of having to make things happen for myself. Tired of having to ask for certain things before I get it. Tired of taking the initiative for everything. If you're not interested, neither am I.

Simplicity

I agree, simplicity is the essence of happiness. But can things always remain so simple? We'll never know will we?

Exams

Yun Yi did pretty well for her first mid-year exams, she is within the top ten placings in her class.

Although I think she cound have done so much better!!! So many careless mistakes. And she's pulled down by her Chinese marks. But never mind, try harder next time and of course, keep up the good work.

Bringing her to KL for a short trip next weekend. We are so proud of her.

Continuation

Have spoken to Pele about a week ago with regards to her contract. She will be due to return home in November and I asked if she wanted to renew her contract. She was happy to do so and so were we. Will give her a pay increase plus a day off once a month.

She's definitely not the best and there are lots of room for improvement. But most importantly, she loves the kids and they are doing well under her care. But the downside is, my little boy is starting to bully her and throwing tantrums to get what he wants. And of course he's pretty close to her. Sad but still, I am grateful to have someone to love him while I am at work and he's such a happy boy!!

That's the downside of being a working mum I guess.

Happy 7th Birthday Yun Yi

Another long overdue post...............

Yun Yi's birthday falls on the 14th may but since it's a Monday, we decided to celebrate it for her on Sunday which is also Mother's Day.





Happy birthday my darling. We love you loads!!!







Thank you all for coming as well as all the presents for Yun Yi (and me!!).

Happy Birthday To Me

Oh yes, this post is definitely long overdue. But I was just simply either too busy or too tired to blog about it.

Anyway, I wasn't very excited about celebrating my birthday this year (12th May) and thus nothing was really planned. Was just supposed to go for a simple dinner with hubby and that's about it.

Was at Bedok Jetty the night before and it was such a beautiful and quiet night. There were so many stars in the sky and it was just beautiful and peaceful. I turned 26 officially when the clock struck 12 midnight. Went home, slept...... ZZzzzzzZZ

Mummy came to bring me out for lunch together with the kids at Crystal Jade. Sis and her girls joined as well.

Went to Bugis in the afternoon for coffee and jalan jalan. Proceeded for dinner at COCA in Ngee Ann City with hubby. Hubby had booked a KTV room for 2 of us after dinner and thus we ended up at Party World at 10pm sharp. Went to the toilet when we reached so hubby went to the room first. Joined him afterwards and started singing.

All of a sudden....... the door opened, I saw a few familiar faces behind the lighted cake. "Happy birthday to you..... happy birthday to you....."

Oh my god!!! I was so shocked, surprised, touched and happy. I teared slightly. It's been a long time since I felt this way.





They gave me this really really really cute snail which I absolutely love!!! And Ah Hoon made me this chocolate bouquet with a bear bear.



Knowing how busy, lazy and uninitiated these guys were, this surprise was definitely a SURPRISE. And it took them all of one day to come up with the idea, plan, collaborate with hubby and execute. All with perfection. But of course, all of them are acting queens.

Hey guys, thank ALL of you for making this day so special for me. I needed the emotional boost and I was really very happy when I saw what you guys planned for me. Really, thank you. I love you all.





And yes, thank you for making it possible. Never knew you could lie so well infront of me though........ Love you.


And not forgetting all the good wishes via SMS which I received. Thank you all too.

Tired

Tired of having to put up a strong front and behaving "as per normal". Tired of having to convince everyone else that I am feeling ok.

I just want to hide and do nothing. Hide and weep. Hide and mourn. But it's just not healthy, I know.

Help me.

The Pain

The moment has come and gone.

It was 4th May 2007. Time 12.30am.

The night was quite and seemed so much darker than usual. The room was cold and I was all alone. I knew it was coming and there was no stopping it. All it took was just 10 hours.

The physical pain was bearable. But the pain of seeing and losing you at the same time was so much more than I could ever bear. There was no one else but just you and me. It was a special moment shared but that will only be part of my memories from then on. It was also the darkest moment in my whole life.

I said sorry to you, but I never got the courage to say goodbye when you were taken away from me. I never got to touch and hold you in my arms and will never get to do so. Everything was just a blur and everything seemed so dark. I felt cold, my heart just ached...... and it was so bad I couldn't breathe. The tears just flowed and nothing else mattered anymore. I had wanted you so badly to be part of me again but it was too late.

I was selfish and didn't have the courage to give you that one chance to be what you could have been. There is no one else to blame but myself. I am sorry, but sorry is just never enough. You would have been beautiful.

Tears flowed then, tears are still flowing now. I don't know how long I will need but the day will come when the tears stop and the pain starts to fade with time but never disappears.

I love you. Goodbye. Forever.

I Am Scared

Tomorrow is the day. I am so scared and sad.

Got free tickets to watch Spiderman tonight!! Happy.