What Now??

Where do we move on from here? What do we want? What can we do? What is at stake? What do we have to lose? What do we have to gain?

I think I know. Do you?

The Unexpected

When things happen unexpectedly, it kinds of throws me off my feet.

You know, I like planning and being able to know what's going to happen. At least for major things. It keeps me sane and I feel better knowing that everything's under control.

But the unexpected has happened. It's a reason to be happy under normal circumstances. But now is definitely not normal. At least not for me. The right thing happening at the wrong time. What am I supposed to do??

It doesn't help when an equally responsible adult starts questioning me why is it such a hard decision to make. I am not expecting you to make a decision for me or anything. I am just expecting a little bit of emotional support at this time. Just a simple "don't be stressed out, whatever is your decision I will be there for you" will mean more to me than anything. You just cannot help but treat me the only way you know how.

You didn't understand in the past, still don't understand now and will probably never understand in the future.

My mind is in a blank. But yet I am seeing other things so much clearer now. Things that I used to be so unsure about. It's all becoming so clear. So frighteningly clear.

I need a sign. A direction.

Unconditional Love

What is the kind of love that's totally unconditional? The love for our children. Simple, pure and totally real. Totally unconditional.

Until they grow up and start asking you for more money that is!!!

Thou Shall Not Hurt

Continue to love the heart that hurt you. But don't hurt the heart that loves you.

But should one continue to love a heart that's hurting another innocent heart. Or be the one that hurts the innocent's heart.

Been There, Done That

Went for a really tiring session of pool on Friday night with Wendy. Followed by a great round of arcade games and a midnight movie.

Haven't had such a great laugh in a long time. You know, the kind of laughter which really comes from within and makes you wanna feel like a little girl all over again.

Thanks girl, for making my day.

We Got It!!!

54 vacancies for phase 2B. 32 applications.

This feels almost like striking 4D. Almost.

Thankfully my 40+ hours of volunteer didn't go down the drain. Phew!!!

Lost???

Saw this sign at a bus stop somewhere in Sembawang sometime last week. Since when did we have such things around at our bus stops?? Or is this peculiar only to this part of the island where people just simply feels lost just by standing there and not move?

I am amused. Have I not been taking buses enough to notice or it's indeed a rare sight? Enlighten me please.

Registration

54 vacancies for phase 2B. Have submitted the application for Yun Yi's place in my preferred primary school. Now we'll wait and see if the number of applicants will exceed 54. If no, my girl has a place!! If yes, then balloting will take place. 2 sleepless nights for me...............

What's so great about this school anyway?? I am applying for it because it's the nearest to my home!!! As long as she gets into the school of my choice, then her brother won't have a problem when it's his turn as he'll be direct entry to his sister's school.

Good luck to everyone else who's going through the same agonising process as I am. May all of you get the choice of school you want.

Tea Time

One fine afternoon when Yun Yi was having her regular dose of vitamin c. Fresh oranges for tea break!!! Her little brother was sitting next to her looking..... drooling......

And decided to have a treat of his own!! Imagine..... the teether to be a juicy and delicious slice of orange. Yummy!!!

Flavour Of The Week

Why do babies love remote controls so much? Tell me your kid doesn't give a damn for the many remote controls you have in the house. Yun Yi loved remote controls too when she was at his age. And now, history is repeating itself.

What is so delicious about a cold and hard remote control? I tried stuffing it into my mouth in an attempt to understand him better. Let's just say, it's not the best food that I've tried.

Of course, his interest doesn't just end with the TV remote but ANY kind of remote controls. SCV, TV, DVD..... and when things get high and dry, he starts making do with my handphone. Boys and their toys.

Paper Slippers

Look what Yun Yi did in school yesterday. Paper slippers and it's in her size.

For the past few years ever since she attended childcare and now kindergarten, she will always bring back her artwork to show us. With pride. I have always loved to see what new creations she did in school with the help of her teachers. These artwork may not be the best looking ones. But to me, it's the best.

Pele (my domestic helper) has been making her do excercises in her assesment books everyday at about 8pm to 9pm. Those assesment books I bought were meant to prepare her for the primary one syllabus. Her maths is doing ok and I have seen improvement in her reading skills as well. Hopefully she will be able to cope when the time comes.

I cannot help but worry that they cannot cope with the high academic demands of the society. But then again, I want nothing more than my children to be happy and lead their lives to the fullest.

Kiasu Mummy

I had registered Yong Ye for 3 baby contests organised by the various CCs for the following next 3 Sundays!! Wahahaha.... very kiasu, yes I know. But you know this kind of contests once it's over, you'll have to wait for another year and by that time, he might be too old for this age group already.

When Yun Yi was a baby, I wanted to register her for such contests so many times. But it always didn't manage to work out due to timing or age issues. Hopefully this time her little brother can do us proud.

Anyway, wish him luck yeah???

Graduation Ceremony

Went for my Diploma graduation ceremony on Sat which was held at Meritus Mandarin.



Look at the group of graduates with their graduation gown on. When will it be my turn??? Who wants to sponsor me $10,000 for my course??



Me and Janice. Self-entertaining while waiting.... and waiting and waiting...........

No pictures of my cert to share. You know why?? Cos there was a slight typo error in my name on my cert. @!$%#^&)(*&$#@@



At NEe Ann City on the way to lunch, saw this charity thingy which you pay $10 for a special coloured lotus flower (fake one lah) which will signify different meanings.You'll need to write your name behind it and make a wish. It will be released into the Singapore River on 2nd September 2006.



I chose a blue one which is supposed to bless me with a smooth and successful career.



And of coursem Janice had a pink one which is for love.



Our flowers then join the many others and awaits to be floated down the river.

Heng heng ah!!!!

Primary One Registration

Yes, the nightmare of all mothers. My little girl is going up to primary one next year and I have already completed and exceeded the 40 hour voluntary work at Evergreen Primary School. This primary schoool is the nearest to my home and ever since it opened its' doors, there hasn't been a year where there wasn't a need to ballot for places in phase 2C. It's kind of confusing for people who have never been through this, so I am going to post the different phases here so that all of you will know what I am talking about.

Phase 1:
For a child who has a sibling studying in the school of choice. 
All children registered under this phase will be given places in schools.

Phase 2A1:
For a child whose parent is a former student of the school and who has joined the alumni association as a member not later than 30 Jun 2005; or whose parent is a member of the School Advisory/Management Committee.

Phase 2A2:
For a child whose parent or sibling has studied in the school of choice; or whose parent is a staff member of the school of choice.

Phase 2B:
For a child whose parent has joined the school as a parent volunteer not later than 1 July 2005 and has given at least 40 hours of voluntary service to the school by 30 June 2006; or whose parent is a member of the church/clan directly connected with the school; or whose parent is endorsed as an active community leader.

Phase 2C:
For a child who is ineligible for or unsuccessful in earlier phases.

Phase 2C Supplementary:
For a child who is unsuccessful in gaining a place in a school of choice at Phase 2C.


This is how it goes, at the end of phase 2A2, 50% of the remaining places will be allocated to phase 2B and the other 50% to phase 2C. If the number of applications exceed the number of places in either phase 2B or 2C, balloting will take place. My 40 odd hours of hard work has earned me the right to apply one phase earlier but not guarantee Yun Yi a place in the school.

Phase 1 has just ended. There were 360 vacancies opened for the primary one intake. At the end of phase 1, only left with 123 vacancies!!!! I am going to go crazy liao. I think phase 2A1 and 2A2 will not have too many applicants but I cannot help but feel worried.

What if my girl cannot get into the school of her choice? And by that time, all the schools near my place are filled up. And she gets posted to this faraway place and needs to crawl up at 5am for the rest of her 6 years!!! Arrgghhhhhh....... I am going to have a panic attack soon. And this year's intake is for all the millenium baby and year 2000 was the year of the dragon. Spike in birth rates makes it even harder.

Must go pray liao. That day went to 大伯公 temple at Loyan forgot to pray for this........

Getting To Know Me

Not in any particular order of preference...........

7 things that scare me
1. horror/ghost movies
2. failure
3. success
4. pain
5. huge machinery
6. rats
7. no money

7 things I like most
1. chicken cooked in any way
2. having sex
3. steamboat
4. a good read
5. long drives (as the passenger)
6. chocolate
7. CSI

7 important things in my room
1. air-con
2. fan
3. TV
4. our little toy with 2 AA batteries
5. digital camera
6. birth certs
7. passports

7 random facts about me
1. I don't even know how to cook rice in the rice cooker
2. I have double eyelids only on one of my eye
3. I have a forever battle going on with my hair
4. I hate doing any form of housework
5. I weigh myself almost every day(and curse the damn machine after each attempt)
6. I have ALOT of bags that I've lost count (prob close to 40)
7. I plan to retire at 40 to be an NTUC cashier

7 things I plan to do before I die
1. sky diving
2. be an NTUC cashier
3. own a dog
4. backpacking in Europe
5. be my own boss of a nail parlor
6. get a tattoo (subject to approval)
7. learn a new language

7 things I can do
1. multi-task
2. control my temper
3. cook instant noodles to perfection
4. apply mascara with my mouth closed
5. teach my maid how to cook without having the slightest idea what I'm talking about
6. wake up when the sun does without any alarms
7. cut the fingernails of a 6 month old baby

7 things I can't do
1. twirl my tongue
2. lick my boss's ass
3. cook
4. spell "diarrhoea" (this was with the help of spellcheck)
5. stop buying bags
6. hurt someone I love for my own reasons
7. tolerate infidelity


7 things I say the most
1. F*** lor
2. is it!!!!
3. oh shit
4. ah, whatever
5. Oh yes... yes yes!!! (don't ask)
6. please lor
7. wah lao

7 celebrity crushes
1. Andy Lau
2. Pierce Brosnan
3. Brad Pitt
4. Tony Leung
5. Fei Xiang
6. George Clooney
7. Hugh Jackman

I Like Being Sheltered

This morning I was searching for my little boy to say goodbye to him when I was leaving for work. The maid in the kitchen so I figured he was probably there too. Guess what he was doing?


There he was!! The little devil!! The maid had cleared the bottom shelf to clean the the pots and pans. She was busy hanging out the laundry when Yong Ye decided to get cosy in his new found play area!!



Oopps..... He realised he's caught in the act. Better get out before mummy decides to scold me!

I want To Break Free

I feel like I am at the top of the world. All alone exposed to the howling winds in the night and no shade from the scorching sun during the day. Everything else is beneath me, not noticing me when I am out in the open. I wished there was a cave, a hole for me to climb into and hide from all around me.

I used to hate eating alone, going to the movies alone, shopping alone, sleep alone and even go back home alone. I see a reverse trend happening. I am starting to like the peace and quiet of eating alone, watching a show alone, shopping alone, sleep alone and even go to work and back home alone. The peace and tranquility of these quiet moments no longer scare me. I somehow feel free and weightless. Free from all restraints and constraints. Free from any explanations and compromises.

But as I settle into this state of mind, I begin to feel uneasy. All of a sudden, I don't know if I can embrace this new found peace. Am I strong enough to accept it with open arms and be prepared to give up other important things in my life? I don't know.

Maybe I am a coward. Maybe I will never really know what it really feels to be free. But just like a little girl in a candy store who cannot afford to buy anything, just being there is almost as good as the real thing.

I Hate The World Cup

I hate the world cup. Period.

It makes men lose all common sense, money, interest in sex and sleep. Not necessarily in that order either. Did you know that the break-up rate during the world cup goes up?

I know, men will start defending themselves saying that it's only once in 4 years and only lasts a month...yadda yadda yadda. And of course, the matches for this world cup only starts at about 11pm so that leaves plenty of time for dinner and couple time before the match starts right?? WRONG!!!!

The typical scenario goes like this............

He watches the 11pm match and then continues to watch the 3am match. Goes to work all groggy head and remains in a stoned state for the rest of the day. Goes home, have dinner and continues to stone infront of the TV till he falls asleep. Blames it on a headache when you wake him up to go shower but continues his beauty sleep. Miraculously manages to wake up without a headache and starts to watch the 11pm match. Falls asleep in the living room after the match and when you wake him up, he claims that he's waiting for the 3am match to start. And when there is a break in between the different knock-out rounds, he takes the time to catch up on his sleep and preps himself for the next wave. The vicious cycle goes on.


Tell me I am wrong. I am sure as hell that I am right because I see this scenario being played everyday for the past 3 weeks.

I hate the world cup. I wish they hold it once every 40 years.